I think I’ve become clingy. And I never was before.
I see myself now, as a controlled clinger. I won’t text a lot, asking what’s up or why you took four hours to respond to a wondering about the weekend. I will understand when I’ve gone too far with quesions and I have the ability to back off.
But as with anything new happening, I have to ask myself why. Why am I like this now?
I seem to have more suspscious thoughts. None that I act on of course, and ones that I shrug off.
I am being abit more paranoid than I ever was. And it is with people I am not even in serious relationships with.
I stepped out of a five year relationship and I can taste my vulnerability in my bowl of Cheerios.
I want confirmation. I want affectionate texts and touches. I want to feel cared for. I know I am reaching for that every day. It is what makes me feel safe and secure right now. Even if it is only temporary.
Oh heck if I know.