How do you get out of a hole deeper than the world. How do you bring yourself up to a livable potential..  remembering the posts you wrote the past month-once again- are forgotton and not remembered and peach and vodka has never tasted so good.

I am in ruin. I am in a spot of danger.

I am in not okay mode and, this one is going to be very very very difficult to pull out of.

This will not be fun, this isn’t fun. This is car crash, charged with incorrect turn and fined, getting divorced and broken up with, back at parents no fun. This is fucked up. This is not how life, this is how life

is, how i chose it to be. This is my choices flopping onto the floor of my life  and i have to walk on it.

Or do I.

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