Don’t Brace Yourself

Bracing ourselves before impact is not a super idea.
It’s that inattentive, limp and carefree and singing to your favorite song while on route to tree kind of thing we’re supposed to have going on that gets us the least amount of damage.

That’s how we should do life, don’t you think?

Forget tensing up. Forget sticking your arms out straight to hold you in the space you don’t have a chance of staying in.

In some cases, it is better to get blind sided then it is to know what’s coming.

Control. Once you are not in it, don’t get ready for impact. All the rolls, the flips and the crashes. Don’t brace yourself for anything.

Bee as fluid as liquid honey.

You just may find the impact sticks to you like a hug gone wild.

 

You Don’t Have To Know What You Want

It’s okay to not know what you want.
You may be under the impression that you are supposed to know. That knowing will make your life feel like it has some sense. That you have direction and a focus, a purpose.
And since all of the above is true when we really do know what we want, I think sometimes we fake it. We choose something that is similar, something that is more obtainable to us then the real thing. We want for the wrong reasons.
Sometimes we may even begin to believe that it is what we want.

That gets scary. And weird. Your whole being is off and you may find you are more unhappy then not. Maybe it is more subtle then that and you feel uneasy or hesitant to make decisions. Maybe you stress over conversations you’ve had in the day or are uptight about how you can’t crack an egg properly for the lives of you and your house mates.

Sometimes pulling a few minutes from your closet and sitting with just that and your heart, you’ll find it’s telling you something. Sometimes it’s things we don’t want to hear. It may be difficult to admit that you’re not really chasing what you want but more the idea of it or so someone else doesn’t get it.

It is better to conclude you really are uncertain about what you want in life -or on a smaller scale, situations -then it is to push on in a direction that isn’t reflecting your heart.
It won’t work that way.
That is one of the many things experience has taught me.

If you don’t know what you want, that’s okay. It doesn’t mean your life is pointless or flawed. We learn things at different times in our lives. Everyone has there own space and time and flow.

So just go with that.

Even when it surprises you.

Because believe it or not, your life is always flowing. Even when you feel stuck.

 

 

 

 

Euphoric Sheet

I once was a sheet of euphoria.
On my tip toes looking into your deep.
I danced in your kitchen as you watched me,
taking off my clothes for you to keep. 

You couldn’t take your eyes off me.
We were set in our own age.
You and I both surging for one another
both the key to our intangible cage.

The power was in everything I did or said
and it took the night to that perfectionist heat,
where you took my hand so slowly
and laid me down on that euphoric sheet.

 

Fear You and I

Tricky
A little bit of
unsureity.

My heart in an envelope

tucked away in purity.
you know
that type of;
maybe i’ll take up smoking
just to make me thinner and braver.
Kinda like that behavior
lures me
because I do

not

know

where

how

what

will make me restart.
I’m a little
scared
and some days
I’m not.

Always there is
that uncertain bowl of air
I digest
and wish I hadn’t

and I don’t know where
to be.

 

We’re all in this together,
you know?

Time.

Sometimes air pockets are better then the empty ones
Sometimes burgundy nails are better then the fake ones
And when you’ve got a lot of time but time doesn’t have a lot of you
You realize it’s because you’re not making it.