When everyone is a threat
and you only feel that you owe people.
That you have lost enough ground to make you feel you have no ground to conquor
that you have lost enough
enough to feel you have nothing to give.
That you’ve made dark in peoples lives where there wasn’t.
And you don’t feel you deserve there care
and pushing them away is the easiest thing to do because
it means you don’t have to think about it
that they aren’t around
to remind you
what you have done.
When you feel you have a burden,
when you pleased people all your life
and now you can’t
because you’re stuck
Because now you’re working not because you want to
but because you have to
because if you dont you’ll lose your kid.
Because if you dont
you can’t afford living.