Lid of Reality

Your shoulders aligned with the sun
when you turned towards me and told me you wanted not to think of me,
to want nothing to do with me anymore.

Disappointment only takes you so far. It’s a lid covering the steam of Reality.
And when that comes at you, it can take your whole life to figure out that disappointment is part of Reality too.

Bad Choices

You kinda just wish
your entire life way
because that’s hope in a nutshell.

And squirrels are the best at breaking those
not humans.

It is You

I backed myself in to where my heart wasn’t

You step back into your habits
and you’re waiting for a person to make you stop them
but the only person that will really keep your decisions where they need to be

is you.

To Find Your Lines

It’s really cool to find your line.

It’s really cool to figure out the lines you want thin, and the lines that you want wide.

Sometimes I purposefully put myself in situations that I don’t feel comfortable in. I connect inside and I become very conscious of what I feel. Uneasiness or discomfort will launch themselves in and they either land on a thin line or a thick.

The wider the line the more concrete I feel about leaving. I can feel it’s edges push up against my heart, pleading with me to get out.
The thin is easier to continue involvement.
In both cases there is unpleasant.
In both cases, I do my best to stay in.
Sometimes the thick line thins a bit.
Sometimes it doesn’t.

With the understanding that I did try to become available to the situation, I am able to leave satisfied a boundary has been created out of love for my self.

 

 

 

If you Can, You Are

If you can hate someone, you have the ability to love them.
If you love someone, they have the ability to break your heart.
If your heart is broken,you and Time are able to repair it.
If you are complete, you can give all you’ve got.

And when you can give all that you’ve got, and it is all that you have,

you are giving yourself
a life of love.