Absolutely Stuck

I’m stuck in the spot of wondering when’s the time to full fledge run for it vs healing time and allowing space and letting go of thoughts that ‘ hey, we’re still going to work out’.
I’m stuck.
I want us to work out. But my hope is drying up quickly. I’m not one to chase.
He’s the first that’s ever walked away from me.
And it’s the first I’ve chased someone,felt like this for someone,etc. etc.

I fear if I do not get myself out there soon, I will return to my depressing state of February and think my life is over.
Maybe I need some sense of that though?

Can’t very well launch while I’m still crawling
yet at the same time, if I don’t move forward, I’m going to be a dead weight in a crib of carpet.