Four Years Ago: BAM

Well I have to post it.

Every year I likely will.
It’s not something you just forget.

Four years ago today, I found out
I was going to be a Mama.

I still have the candle holder I peed in when I found out.
I made it back into a candle. Not with my pee.
But wax. And
not from my ears.

I don’t ever light it though.
It sits on my dresser and when I look at it,
it reminds me how crazy it is,
that pee can tell you
that you’re carrying an eventual living human bean person in your belly.