To Love the Center

Do you ever think back to a time period with someone and can’t remember who you really were?

A few years spent together with a person and you can’t bring your imagination to recreate how you were, how you felt.

Thoughts like these make me wonder me.

If I’m to change so drastically again- as perhaps is a continual cycle- then I and the people in my life will either have to adapt together on this or be left in the past.

Present me knows that whoever I end up choosing to spend my entire life with, has to know that the Future me could potentially forget who I was. That Present me will change.
So it is important that the Present Other knows my heart and my core – and loves THOSE parts of me. Not the ones that will change so extremely.

 

Opinions

Everyone you meet is going to have an opinion. Vocalized or not.
This is one of the parts that make up who they are.

Somewhere in life, they got this opinion. And because your life is different then theirs, you’ll have gathered different ones.

Don’t attack what people have gathered in life.
Embrace that part of them and recognize, it’s okay to feel differently.

Your experiences are yours alone.

And so are theirs.
Respect them.

 

Dizzy but Not Waiting

You stood there in my life and I wondered what you were doing besides making my heart and head go merry go round crazy.

‘You were figuring it out,’ I had supposed, and I gave you time to do so.

All the while collecting dizzy.

I took my energy and I pummeled it into exercise- I didn’t want to wait around idle. It felt good and eventually it felt less like I was waiting about and more like I was living my life. 

 

We are All Stories

I have a blank head at the moment.
But anytime I’ve been away from the computer the past two days, I have a consistent thought.
‘Post Something.’

I’m going to let force myself to slip into a careless, functioning part of stillness and float.

 

 

It’s all stories.

Everyone is one. Everything we say and do, is at least a part of one. That One is Yours.

Then we have the impacts. We’re all characters with roles we don’t even know we’re playing.
The amount we relay and to whom is a part of our character. People percieve it at all different levels, but the fact that we’re now apart of not just our one story, but theirs too,  is kind of cool. Right?

You fill up your vehicle at a gas station that has really great fuel prices. Your aunt tells her friend that, and her friends son goes to that exact gas station and sees a friend that invites him out to a baseball dance party game slash whatever sounds awesome right here and he has such a great time and meets his future wife.

We are all connected.

 

 

 

 

And hey,
I guess a blank mind is never actuallly blank.

 

 

 

 

 

 

What if we Could…

We all want to be ourselves. And that’s what we are best at.
Why spend our one life unhappy being someone else when being ourselves is part of our purpose. We are going to get the most out of this entire experience by learning to give our individuality something.
A chance to be what it is.

Just try it.

There are billions out there. Look at all of us online here. All the relations and understandings and recognition. If we can find it online, certainly we can find it out in the world. Because guess what, the internet is what’s out in the world,-heck it’s even in airplanes now- which means those people are too.

You’ve got nothing to lose by speaking your thoughts. Let the bold you stand through. You’ll create stronger and the most closest relationships you’ve ever had because they are loving YOU and you’ll know it because that’s the only person you’re giving them.

Wind and Life

There’s something about wind: the flow of air that we cannot see but can feel, that riddles my skin to magic.

We see the leaves flutter and hear them.
And it is the unseen.

The same as such in life.

There are events, experiences, moments…essentially Time, that happens in everybodys life.
And the person is a subject of the unseen.
Wind does damage, wind does beauty, just as time does.

There is a force out there that we don’t see and it affects each one of us.

We can be the fluttering strength of a flower who won’t let go of it’s roots or the tree that crashes to the forest floor.

We get to choose how to deal with the wind of our life. 

Friday Night

I drank last night for the first time since March 11th 2016.

It was alright. I didn’t go crazy. I got real tired real quick. And at the end, I felt bad for the stupid dill pickle chips I ate.

Drinking kind of splattered my health kick everywhere. That’s a thing about drinking that I forgot.
I still feel rather drunkified.

But yuh know, sitting across from a 52 year old male who talks about his antique finds and putting my social skilling to use, was actually pretty rewarding. I reminded myself of what I was good at. It can be dangerous, but this time I know that. I know he’ll like me and want to see me again and that meeting like this, changes everything about our future encounters. I know that my skills still work and I’m more aware of them than I was when I last used them.

So anyhoozle, my night out interacting under the slight of influence was beneficial.
And that’s that!

 

 

 

 

Topics of Conversation and People

There are certain people to talk to about certain things.
Almost anyone can get an earful of venting at times,  yet it’s nice to decipher which topic in general, your audience is most suited for.

The kid one is easy. If they don’t have children, don’t gab on about the rate at which yours is growing, that he or she had six bananas on Tuesday and got their hair styled into a mohawk on Friday. If it’s relatable to a discussion you are already in, a quick mention will do.

Pets. As much as half the world can seem like they are animal lovers, half the world only means there’s another half. Fur, tricks and whiskers are not for everyone.

People like to relate to whatever comes out of your mouth. If you’re speaking of your international travels when they have merely gone to the big shopping mall 4 hours away, chances are it’s a short circuit of a conversation.

Find someone in your life that really loves fashion, so when you have an outfit predicament, you’re going to them and not the one who wears scrubs for a living AND outside of living.
If you need to get marital issues off your chest, ( obviously a marriage counsellor is an option )  find the friend that has went through similar problems and can benefit from talking to YOU about such things.

You’ll find the bonds between new people you meet will manifest easily and quickly and that existing relationships will be strengthened ten fold.

 

Some Quotes Just Aren’t Good.Or Are They.

I like my fair share of quotes. I do.
However,
some of them don’t really work for me.

And I get it. Quotes are supposed to be short, sweet and worded just right so that the idea is transmitted easily.

But sometimes the lack thereof is the very thing that promotes the questions.
Or the thing that completely sucks the reality away.

As far as my thoughts have went:

you CAN’T ‘live each day as if it was your last’

you CAN’T ‘live in each and every single moment.’
This is not something we can exert 100% of the time.
How come?
Because we have a brain and circumstantial invariables.  We have exhaustion,distractions and feelings that collapse into our soul without asking.  We have a mind that needs a break.
We have too many loved ones, distance and lack of time,  to go and say goodbye to them every single day we’re supposed to be living like it’s our last.

 

‘Always Kiss Me Goodnight’

I thought relationships  were supposed to mirror selflessness.
Let’s make this less individualistic. Specially if it’s going to go above our bed.
” Always Give Us a Kiss” And goodnight? What about Morning? Or Snack time?!

“Always Kiss Us Anytime” is my version.

 

” Don’t worry. Be Happy “.

Now, now. Before you get upset running through your veins, I enjoy Bob Marleys music and I think- based on what I know- the life he lived.
With each quote there are usually a few different circumstances that change it.  So when your house burns down and takes everything with it, you should be happy that you’re alive, right? Except realistically you’re going to worry about the passport that you need for the trip you had planned two days from then, to see your mother who has a week to live.
Perhaps we should just accept that we’re not going to be happy in every situation of our lives so that when we do feel down, it’s not as big of a revolting disgust- which makes the sadness darker.

‘Live.Love.Laugh?’

If we’re really going to break life down like that, why we gotta put ‘live’ in there.
Loving and laughing should BE what living IS. Not another L word.

 

And you see, you can’t really win when trying to break down quotes.
Loving and laughing should be what living is yet we should accept we’re not going to be happy all the time? Ha!

Quotes are going to contradict one another because they’ve all got there unique individiality and power to prove points based on specific circumstances .

Now, that’s going into quote format. 😉  :

 

‘Quotes are going to contradict one another because they’ve all got there unique individiality and power to prove points based on specific circumstances . ‘