I have left the older version of my About Me still intact at the bottom but as of April 23rd 2016, I have added on this bit:
I’m 27 with a 3 and a half year old son.
I live with my Dad ( Mom moved out March 11th 2016 ), I have a part time job and two friends I see on a regular basis.
Other than that I keep to myself. This is quite new to me as I love being around people.
I’m pretty aware, open, and decently realistic.
I’ve just recently discovered a new kind of love/relationship that I’d like to have in my life. It’s astounded me how it’s taken me this long to find it, but all I know is that it has made me, and is making me, a better person.
I always want to strive for improvement.
I’m not much of a writer; I don’t know the grammar,the puncuation, the proper amount of words to make it a run on sentence but I love to write and have been keeping journals since 1998.
Life to me is learning, accepting,trying, failing and trying again. Pushing through the struggles and allowing self to be a little dark, but not TOO dark.
Now turn on the light and follow me.
When the company my Dad worked for asked if he’d like to construct a 300 million dollar power plant in Thailand, I immediately said yes.
Okay, so he said yes. And I tagged along.
But when it came down to me and the choice to go?
It was one of the first times in my life where I felt the decision was already made before the question was even asked.
I did the teaching there, I did the schooling, I did the partying, the living with a boy thing and the Mom thing.
And then I left.
My 26 year old self flew back to Canada with my 2 year old son in September 2014.
Living abroad was both tough and wonderful.
I’d like to say I learned a large amount about self and that I’ve created parts of self that are amounting. But my choices in Thailand led me not only into walls of hermit breakdown, but into depth reflective corners.
And it is in those corners where I realized, I don’t have a grip on who I am.
By moving back to a place I am most comfortable in, where ordering a steak dinner means you get a steak dinner, where conversations surpass the lines of ‘what you do today?’, I aim to create,
a person I love again.
I know that I am open and self aware. I love people.
I love difference, I love same.
I do love life, but like in any relationship,
sometimes that’s difficult to tell.
I’m just glad I can tell that it is difficult to tell
so that I am able to write about all emotions and experiences without guilt.
Because guilt, even though it is a good and necessary thing to feel sometimes,
it can drive a person mad.
Come with me as I explore the after affects of living abroad and the beginning of something I’M not even sure of.
All I know is that it’s called Life, and I can choose how to live it.